How sad is it that my life is PG. Not even PG-13. No real swearing (only H-E-double hockey sticks!) or even heavy petting. I'm so pathetic.


I finally finished the form to consolidate my school loans. This whole process began in April. Before I even graduated.

After the filling out of some forms, a signature here or there... I was rejected. According to the company I used, my original lender was pissed I didn't go through them, so they wouldn't accept the request for consolidation. I just picked the first letter that came in the mail. It wasn't by any real choice. Jerry, my loan officer, was real nice. He even sounded kinda hot. Anyway, after figuring out exactly what I owe and to whom, I reluctantly applied for consolidation through my lender. I was still miffed at them for being poons with Jerry.

Fuckers.

Part of the reason I didn't want to use my lender was that the application process took roughly 20 minutes as opposed to the 4 with Jerry. I decided to bite the bullet and apply online. (It takes longer over the phone. I don't have to explain to some moron from Tulsa how to spell my name.) I completed 99% of the application. All I had to do was click on "e-sign" then print it for myself and I'd be done.

BUT NO!!!

The story goes on.

If you are an avid reader of this site then you might know of how my computer randomly decides, "Hey, I'm tired of doing my job" and an error window pops up to tell me "An illegal error has occurred. Explorer is shutting down. It is recommended that you re-start your computer." I swear on my love of Walt Disney World, I have never screamed the word "Fuck" so loud in my life. (I bet that's not a sentence WDW would like to read. Won't get my any closer to my lifetime pass. Eh.)

I re-started the computer. Thank God the lender saves all the info you type in. I would have slit my wrists had I had to endure the previous 20 minutes again.

Long story short: I consolidated my loans today.

I also made a to do list of things I want to do before I die, and on a scale of 1-10 how hard it would be to do said things. I highly recommend one does this when having a bad day. I was instantly energized. And motivated to get off my ass.

Being alive is cool. More people should look into it.

Peace...

Current Music: Duncan Sheik - Reasons For Living
"You say this is living, you feel so alive. Well you know everything dies. Even my wonder, even my fear, only amount to a couple of tears."