I just woke up from the most amazing dream ever.

Very rarely have I woken up smiling from ear to ear.

Characters:
Chris - My brother
Amber - My brother's girlfriend
Mrs. T - Neighbor
Ashton Kutcher - actor, my boyfriend
Myself - all around hottie

Chris and Amber were in Jersey visiting when they asked Mrs. T to come over to give us directions to get to certain things in the city. My mom called her since her husband is somewhat of a character on Conan O'Brien. (That part is true. He really has been on Conan a few times) She was giving directions to Amber when my brother had to go read an email at the store. (I know it doesn't make sense. It's my dream, just go with me.)

Amber was getting directions from Mrs. T, when my boyfriend came downstairs after taking a shower. Ashton's hair was all messed up and he was just wearing a towel. I went to introduce him to Mrs. T, but I blanked on his name.

"Mrs. T, this is Chris' best friend and my boyfriend. I'm sorry honey, I blanked on your name."

He said, "Hi, I'm Ashton."

I then ran over to him and gave him a hug and whispered in his ear, "I'm sorry I blanked on your name, but you came down in a towel, and you're so hot I just turned to mush."

Then for some reason people were signing yearbooks. I was talking to Mrs. T when I looked over to see Ashton writing in mine. I caught a glimpse of what he was writing and it looked just like Walt Disney's handwriting. I then proceeded to hug him for being such an awesome boyfriend.

All this time Mrs T is giving directions to the city, but they are all backwards.

Chris has come back and told us that his show was picked up, and that he was moving back to the city with Amber. Amber was excited. Chris was too. They both hate Detroit. (True in real life. Detroit = bad)

Ashton and I were going to go into the city with them, when he said, "You know baby, I'm kinda tired. Do we have to go out, or can we just stay in?" He then kissed me and gave me the most amazing hug ever. I woke up right in the middle of the hug and kiss.

Reading this back, it doesn't sound like the greatest dream ever, but what made it so great was Ashton was the perfect boyfriend. In the dream, my fish died, and I was too creeped out to flush the fish, so he did. I was making breakfast for everyone and he helped clean up afterwards and make everything. He personified what everything I've ever hoped for in a boyfriend.

I've always thought Ashton Kutcher was kinda hot, but never have I had a dream about him before. I have had dreams about television before. Two nights ago I had a dream that I was in the finale of Sex and The City. I was Carrie and a person from my life was Mr Big. While I wish I was Carrie, and I had a Big in my life, even an Ashton for that matter... I know I will never meet these people. I'm cool with that.

The part I'm not cool with is that they represent something I don't have. This all may be from my drug-induced coma (God bless you Dimetapp), but it still happened.

Moral of the story: I think I'm having an attack of life. A Quarter-life crisis if you will. And I'm realizing what's missing from my life. Direction. I have no idea what I'm doing. A year ago I was sitting in a Chinese Restaurant with Michele having Veggie Lo Mein because it's Lent (no meat) with a half a semester left of college. I now have a job I stumbled into.

People tell me I'm doing good. But I still feel like I've settled. Like I gave up on something. Who knows maybe I was meant to teach. Maybe this is it for me. But that scares me. What if this is as good as it gets?

Peace...

Current Music: Vince Gill - Someday
"I will always believe that there's somebody just for me. Someday love will come."