Everyone has secret vices. The one thing that only they have that no one can take away from them. I've mentioned before, my vice is movies.

I watched Shakespeare in Love for the first time. I can see what the big fuss was over it around Oscar time. I honestly enjoyed it. It had the same effect that Apollo 13 had on me. I knew what was going to happen, but I was still on the edge of my seat. And after watching it, the question is once again raised. When is my turn? I've said in the past how I can't find the words as to how I am feeling, so I do so through other people's words. It's just how my brain thinks. My brother has a mechanical brain, come to think of it my family is like that. My brain is more on the philosophical end then the number crunching end. My sister has it best. She has the mechanical and philospohical brain. But I digress...

So after watching this movie, I began to think of my favorite question... When is it my turn? When do I get to share my heart with someone who will understand it? Most days I dont. But there has to be someone out there. Right? What if there isn't someone for everyone? It's like the age old question of which came first, the chicken or the egg?

For You To Notice - Dashboard Confessional
I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head where I would impress you with every single word I said. Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming and you'd want to call me And I would be there every time you'd need me I'd be there every time... But for now I'll look so longingly waiting... For you to want me, for you need me, for you to notice me

On a side note, Happy 21st Birthday Shannon.
peace...